Emotional turmoil in the fast lane.

I am so stressed out with life yet instill I am still moving forward with working out. I've lost another 1.4 lbs.
So many things are going wrong but I can't let that deter my diet.
The newest struggle is my mother being sick and not being able to see her. I'm an emotional being all together but when family is involved it takes a tole on me mentally. 


This week I worked out twice. I went to bootcamp and then I walked 6 miles.

I also injured myself trying to move furniture when I was trying to move back to Austin. Unfortunately do to constantly being on the computer for the past 20 years I think it's going to make it worse because of all the repetition typing.  I honestly think it's a combination of things. My breast being a DDD and all the weight that's on my shoulder as well. Nothing seems to be working. The medication they gave me for pain makes me sick. My shoulder is constantly in pain and this discomfort doesn't allow me to give 100% of myself

I keep cheating on my food intake because I HATE cooking and the southbeach diet is annoying as hell.

I watched this video below and was very motivated.
 

 I want to succeed this time so bad. I just dont want all this weight and luggage on my body. I refuse to look back on the past. I want everything that GOD has for me. Society treat overweight people like shit and I am tired of being that person. I hate being the third wheel and the girl who doesn't fit in because of size or looks.


 I have to plan my meals and eat better. There are no excuses.

I am about to turn 34. I can't look back especially at failed relationships. . I have all this free time to workout now so I can't give up.

I really desperately want a membership to a gym. I didn't take a liking to Golds gym but I did go to check it out.

Costco has a membership for $349 for 24 months that's $14 a month which is a great deal.

So the focus now is ABS, ABS, ABS because that is where all my weight is.

Goodtimes. 

I can I will I shall

I weighed myself today and I lost 17lbs. I see signs of my journey. I decided every 18th or 19th I will post a picture of myself in the same clothes.

I came up with more vain reasons I am losing weight.
1. Rock my heels
2. Have a body like Bria Myles (google her)
3. Send a naked of my new body to all my exes who don't realize I was the best thing to happen to them lol

It was hard to stop eating meat and sugar but I did it.

Seven more months to go until my 34th birthday and SXSW2013.

An old friend told me about a gym called planet fitness. They have a pretty decent membership fee. I think I will join them this week. My goal is to lose 20lbs by next weigh in which is September 19 2012. Lifting weights and building muscle will help. I have to work on my water intake I have been doing terrible with that.

I would like to lose 13 inches around my waist by Jan 31, 2013. I will then have a 36 inch waist. Next year I will go for the 24 inch Bria Myles style lol

I said yes to the dress!

Guess what guys!

I lost a whole entire dress size...
August 2012 size 20

 FEBRURARY 2012 - size 22

I went from a size 22 to a size 20!  I AM SO FREAKING EXCITED.
That means I'm losing inches even if  I don't see the results through the scale. I went with a friend to Nordstrom Rack and found this beautiful dress. a khaki  strapless dress with pockets... oooohh how I love a dress with pockets. They only had a size 20. I fell in love. I decided to try it on and it fit! My breast are just poking out. It's like $24 for this dress from $158.


My whole goal is to get out of the teens. It took 7 weeks to get out of the teens but I figure I wasn't eating healthy either so that is apart of why I can't lose weight.  Phase 2 will include water intake, nutrition and exercise. I am taking magnesium and potassium pills as well. For heart and nerves.  I


All my weight is in my mid section.
1. breast
2. stomach
3. back.

I guess I'm an apple shaped body because of the centralized weight gain. I think I may have said that in a previous post.

Now that I'm getting older it's getting hard to get this weight off in these areas.

I'm giving myself until March 12, 2013 to lose 80lbs.

My goal is to get under 200lbs. I was 286 when I started and I honestly don't know how much I currently weight now.  I have been refusing to weight myself because I get extremely obsessed with it.


A part of me wants to fast for 21 days for religious purposes but I know apart of me is doing it for weight-loss purposes.

I want God to make a huge move in my life. I'm asking for tremendous blessings.

Positively yours. 

I'm so vain

You're so vain you probably think this post is about you... don't you..don't you.

well it ain't. LOL


So ... about 90% of my reasons to lose weight are extremely vain.

1. Wear a bikini
2. Paint my toes with no belly in the way.
3. Get a bikini wax for the first time.
4. Be able to shop in the junior section of the stores...lol
5. Be able to strap the seat belt around my waist without needing an extender. (My weight goes to my stomach)
6. Not be afraid to date and try new things
7. Skydive without the weight restrictions
8. SXSW 2013............... FUN FUN FUN FUN.. running the streets of Austin
9. Not have to pay this ridiculous amount for bra's freaking 50-80$ for 1 bra. RIDICULOUS! 
10. Have sex without feeling self conscious (Once my husband finds me of course)


There are the other reasons like my grandmother has heart problems and my cousin died of heart failure.
I don't want to be a statistic like most black females.  Not making excuses for my PCOS (polysystic ovarian syndrome)

But the honest truth is that I am officially tired of being overweight.

Like my aunt says.. "Dria you have no kids and no husband I'm confused on why you are overweight. You have no distractions right now."

So I said to myself... "damn that hurt but it's the truth. I have no excuses"

I live in a health conscious city where it's always sunny and there is always something to do like walk or run the trails. Austin,TX

So at 33 I've decided I'd rather be happy than miserable with myself.

I'd rather stop making excuses and JUST DO IT.
I can't keep putting this shit off. So I'm being honest with myself and you.

I would be sorry if I didn't start TODAY. 

I'm so happy you guys are get to be apart of my journey.

I'm going to be completly honest. I workout but it's the eating that is messing me up.

I love to eat at restaurants.. I hate to cook even though I know how to cook. Cooking takes time and effort.
 So i'm going to start investing in myself.

Love Love
Edria

So I had to restart.

Have you done that before?

You start something and you don't like the way you started so then you start again.

For the past I would say 8 years (since I was 25)  I have been trying to lose weight.

Let me tell you how my weight gain started. I was 175lbs in college and I thought I was OVERWEIGHT.

I'm 5'7 1/2  so I'm tall apple shaped woman.

So I started popping weight-loss pills....... I never told anyone this. but I did.

 I only wanted to lose 25lbs.

My goal was 150. I would look so HOT at 150lbs!

The negative things I had been told as a child (mind you I was always slim) my mother is a petite short woman and my body is built like hers but I'm tall..

So I get to college and my second year I got my own apartment. TERRIBLE thing to do.

I am better at living with people being in a house full of 9-10  people at points.  I'm the eldest of 8 but being raised by my grandmother I am used to someone being around.

So here I am RESTARTING OVER not just with the weightloss but with the entire life.

1. Health/Nutrition

2. Finances

3. Consistency

4. Relationships

5. Friendships.